ngaiti.
went into the music room yesterday and suddenly, everyone started to wish me good luck. i was so blur. why suddenly bo su bo su go wish me good luck? then i thought, maybe have to go parade later and they wish me good luck. but then, cannot be leh. kinda impossible. then... when she walked in, everyone was like "got movie". shit man. did everyone like, know my section's gonna get it before my section even know?
so hurt. it's not like we didn't want to keep them in the files. i did ask and you said, "no need". i swear i heard you said that. and we already know we are weak, which is why we are now trying our best to improve. which is why we schedule extra morning practices. which is why we teach properly. which is why we go for practices during formation practices. which is we are now learning how to blast. which is why we go back to rubank to learn what we forgo to learn last time. which is why i didn't quit eventhough my shouder hurts like hell after every practice. we don't have a lot of people lah. we're just trying to make the best out of all that we have. trying to make a uniform sound. and know what. we're still gonna try.
anyway, on the bright side, exam's over! last paper, sejarah, was.... i don't know how to say. all i know was that during that whole one and a quarter hour, i had no mood. i only wanted to finish the paper quickly so i could jump up in joy and scream. then, i TRIED to check.... but ended up just staring at the paper and the paper stare back at me. haih. dunno how my results will be.... could be like the sun shining brightly on top.... or it could be like shit. *choi* luckily those kiasu or kepo people forgot bout me and didn't ask bout my sej marks. can't imagine if they asked and blurted out to me. if my marks ok.. then good lah... but if not ok, how leh? feel so depressed. like kimmy. she didn't want to know. and they blurted out. and she had just sat for the paper earlier on that same day. it's like a cruel punishment.
gonna go kuching fest tonight. muahaha.
~~and thanks esme!! for the food and drinks and words!!~~
went into the music room yesterday and suddenly, everyone started to wish me good luck. i was so blur. why suddenly bo su bo su go wish me good luck? then i thought, maybe have to go parade later and they wish me good luck. but then, cannot be leh. kinda impossible. then... when she walked in, everyone was like "got movie". shit man. did everyone like, know my section's gonna get it before my section even know?
so hurt. it's not like we didn't want to keep them in the files. i did ask and you said, "no need". i swear i heard you said that. and we already know we are weak, which is why we are now trying our best to improve. which is why we schedule extra morning practices. which is why we teach properly. which is why we go for practices during formation practices. which is we are now learning how to blast. which is why we go back to rubank to learn what we forgo to learn last time. which is why i didn't quit eventhough my shouder hurts like hell after every practice. we don't have a lot of people lah. we're just trying to make the best out of all that we have. trying to make a uniform sound. and know what. we're still gonna try.
anyway, on the bright side, exam's over! last paper, sejarah, was.... i don't know how to say. all i know was that during that whole one and a quarter hour, i had no mood. i only wanted to finish the paper quickly so i could jump up in joy and scream. then, i TRIED to check.... but ended up just staring at the paper and the paper stare back at me. haih. dunno how my results will be.... could be like the sun shining brightly on top.... or it could be like shit. *choi* luckily those kiasu or kepo people forgot bout me and didn't ask bout my sej marks. can't imagine if they asked and blurted out to me. if my marks ok.. then good lah... but if not ok, how leh? feel so depressed. like kimmy. she didn't want to know. and they blurted out. and she had just sat for the paper earlier on that same day. it's like a cruel punishment.
gonna go kuching fest tonight. muahaha.
~~and thanks esme!! for the food and drinks and words!!~~
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