boy, you won't believe how "easy" it is to study at 1.04 am in front of the computer with a book on a music stand while listening to orchestra music - the final countdown by london symphony orchestra is playing over my speakers now. i know lah orchestra music is boring bla bla bla but i like lah can! ok lah, maybe i don't like it all that much coz i went to SONS concert twice and twice i almost fell asleep.... no wait. maybe i just can't stand looking at a real orchestra... or something.... i don't know lah. kk. wait a moment... gonna glance at my book....
ok. why am i studying you ask? well... i don't know.... i was thinking about what my ambition is during dinner. why i suddenly think bout that ar? well, i was first thinking about buying someone's present which then leads to how broke i am and then to how am i gonna make money to my ambition. simple! you hear about following those older in your family punya footsteps all the time i bet. well, it's not working for me. why? let's see....
my eldest brother is currently studying IT. now, his entire life has probably been about computers. he was the one who would conjure up funny, weird yet enjoyable and fun games when i was like... i duno... 5? games that until now also i don't know originate from which planet. =.=" he knows what he's doing.
then my other brother is planning to study medicine. i don't know how he got to that ambition coz i vividly remember he wrote this essay once about how he will never take up med coz he's scared of blood. well... look who's talking... now, this brother study a lot.... come to my house and you will see him staring at his book. chemistry, bio, add maths, general studies, watever. every night also he read his bio reference.... yea... he knows what he's doing too....
then... me leh? i don't know. i don't know what i'm doing. i think i'm forever inconsistent. study also inconsistent... that's why from highest in geo drop 33 marks into longkang. piak.... by the way, i'm studying geo now. lol. and i don't even know where my interest lies. sure you ever hear the people in movies say something like, "oh nevermind! so long as i have music/you/love/science/maths with me i'll be fine!". crap lah!! no life ar those people!!
ok. don't give up yet!! let's analyse. well... almost 10 years of studying... not a single subject i like.... erm... think harder... THINK!!!...... nah! got nothing! i'm not gonna be a tailor - i'm scared of sewing machines (bad experience last year...). not gonna be an architect - no creativity and am absolutely horribly terribly terukly hopeless in drawing. not gonna be a doctor coz i'm scared to know all the penyakit-penyakit. you not scared meh? i mean you actually know all the penyakit and the symptoms wor!! alamak... i'm so hopeless.....
what have i achieved so far.... well..i have a number of trophies... three medals.... a number of certs.... ran in the stadium negeri in march.... performed on stage.... sold stuff.... managed a game stall..... some more performances.... talked on stage..... got some okok positions.... that's basically it. so sedih... aaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! hin aaaa!!!! how to survive like dat! better go learn how to cook kolo mee now.... and maybe make some secret formula to make my kolo mee extra nice so next time i go sell i shoot to the top and open my own kolo mee restaurant with cawangan worldwide.... muahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in my dreams.........
1.36 am now. phantom of the opera by the same orchestra is on my speakers now. i think i'm just gonna go sleep now...... or maybe study somemore..... dunno lar... need to school somemore tomorrow.... aduh....
nitez then.
ok. why am i studying you ask? well... i don't know.... i was thinking about what my ambition is during dinner. why i suddenly think bout that ar? well, i was first thinking about buying someone's present which then leads to how broke i am and then to how am i gonna make money to my ambition. simple! you hear about following those older in your family punya footsteps all the time i bet. well, it's not working for me. why? let's see....
my eldest brother is currently studying IT. now, his entire life has probably been about computers. he was the one who would conjure up funny, weird yet enjoyable and fun games when i was like... i duno... 5? games that until now also i don't know originate from which planet. =.=" he knows what he's doing.
then my other brother is planning to study medicine. i don't know how he got to that ambition coz i vividly remember he wrote this essay once about how he will never take up med coz he's scared of blood. well... look who's talking... now, this brother study a lot.... come to my house and you will see him staring at his book. chemistry, bio, add maths, general studies, watever. every night also he read his bio reference.... yea... he knows what he's doing too....
then... me leh? i don't know. i don't know what i'm doing. i think i'm forever inconsistent. study also inconsistent... that's why from highest in geo drop 33 marks into longkang. piak.... by the way, i'm studying geo now. lol. and i don't even know where my interest lies. sure you ever hear the people in movies say something like, "oh nevermind! so long as i have music/you/love/science/maths with me i'll be fine!". crap lah!! no life ar those people!!
ok. don't give up yet!! let's analyse. well... almost 10 years of studying... not a single subject i like.... erm... think harder... THINK!!!...... nah! got nothing! i'm not gonna be a tailor - i'm scared of sewing machines (bad experience last year...). not gonna be an architect - no creativity and am absolutely horribly terribly terukly hopeless in drawing. not gonna be a doctor coz i'm scared to know all the penyakit-penyakit. you not scared meh? i mean you actually know all the penyakit and the symptoms wor!! alamak... i'm so hopeless.....
what have i achieved so far.... well..i have a number of trophies... three medals.... a number of certs.... ran in the stadium negeri in march.... performed on stage.... sold stuff.... managed a game stall..... some more performances.... talked on stage..... got some okok positions.... that's basically it. so sedih... aaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! hin aaaa!!!! how to survive like dat! better go learn how to cook kolo mee now.... and maybe make some secret formula to make my kolo mee extra nice so next time i go sell i shoot to the top and open my own kolo mee restaurant with cawangan worldwide.... muahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in my dreams.........
1.36 am now. phantom of the opera by the same orchestra is on my speakers now. i think i'm just gonna go sleep now...... or maybe study somemore..... dunno lar... need to school somemore tomorrow.... aduh....
nitez then.
1 comment:
Hey Lip yi!! Hahaha! I found ur blog! Lol! Btw, i can't sleep rite now. I donno why. i read all ur blog entry. It was funny! U donno ur ambition? Its normal. Im also not sure what am i going to study and do in my future and im in form 4 now. I know lots of ppl will ask me what am i going to study, wads my plan after Form 5? Honestly, i donno and so as u rite? But for me, i will jst study hard now and do everything well now. Then, let God decide what am i going to do nxt. I think u shud jst study hard now and thats it 1st. Think about it. Love ya! Mwarksss!=)
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